You met me at the station, such a sweet sight eventhough you felt tired and heavy from your previous evening of a hefty night shift. You held me close, you smelt so good, I felt waves of joy ripple through me and a grin spread across my face.
We hopped in your car, made a special journey to lidl for brioch bread and went back to yours. We slid under the sheets to nap but I was so excited I couldn't sleep, all I could think about was how beautiful his face was and how already I knew parting was going to be difficult.
We shyly but tenderly touched, he was so familiar and yet I realised this was only our second time meeting so the butterflies kicked in and held us back from being too natural.
We went to the bakery, picked out greedily and went home to indulge and watch youtube videos that made us laugh and think of each other.
We then went to the beach, picked out different icecream flavours and walked along the pier. We talked to the families crabbing off the edge, we joked at how serious they were taking it and we took photos in the sun. You talked about work and we laughed at the beach huts selling vintage denim jackets...the time soon evaporated, and we went back to watch the final lord of the rings film with intensity. Soon after we went to the city to get some dinner, a lovely Lebanese place where we drank coffee and ordered too much food.
We talked about our childhoods, how you were able to keep many animals and looked through photos. It was past kicking out time, and we walked through the cobbled streets by the river, which was so calm in the dark. We giggled at the ducks and admired the different buildings along the skyline.
We walked back to the car and then home again where we sleepily played card games with music and then curled up in bed to awake late on Sunday morning. You let me borrow your fleece dressing gown, we ate the remaining pastries with coffee and watched Spaced, then gathered our things to head to the beach, one you hasn't ever been to before. It was beautiful, one of the most magical places id ever been to! We ate cheese and bread, played games and stared out the seagulls waiting us to drop any crumbs.
The sun went down, and we went for a walk along the sea wall, found a pub and grazed on chips and garlic mushrooms. Nerves aren't usually what im used to feeling when I'm around guys generally, but I realised I was at this point. He was so interesting and witty, I wanted so much to be those things too and didn't want to make any slip ups, I felt so aware of everything I was saying. But I was having the best time. I felt so happy. Nobody crossed my mind but him, nothing wanted to interrupt the lovely time I was having, I wasn't having it.
We went back to his to watch more youtube videos huddled on the floor and then step brothers, where I laughed too much and too loudly at the silly bits.
We talked before we slept, honestly about how we felt, how you had wanted to hold my hand but didn't for some reason, how you feel comfortable around me and how this sort of thing usually doesn't happen to you. I told you for the first time in a long time i felt so happy, it hadn't been such a great time for me recently. We both said how we enjoyed learning more about each other and how there were lots of things we both liked about each other.
This morning, i so didn't want to leave :( I knew we had to go back to our normal lives but I wanted so much to call in sick and just be in your environment for a while longer.
We said we'd arrange another time, give me something to count down...I dearly hope that we do... You are magical, all I want to do is love you, keep you safe and be everything you need and give you all that you want. I want adventures with you, see all there is to see, share new experiences and old ones the other may not be aware of.
You inspire me, I've not felt that for a long time...
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