Not wasted if it's enjoyed

Finally it's Thursday afternoon.

Soon it will be Friday, the day I see him. Is he as excited as me? 

Why am I even excited? Where do I really think this is all going? 

I have no idea.

I've no idea about anything at all. 

Yesterday me and my brother met up with joe for a couple of drinks, it was so lovely and impromptu. I sat opposite him as he talked of stories from work, his Friends and couldn't stop imaging a wedding band on his finger and wondering how I'd feel I was actually sitting opposite my husband. How did that thought make me feel? Confused. I realised I could easily settle for that. But it would me cutting the strings with everyone else, now, how does that make me feel? Confused. 

Well. There we have it. I am a confused individual. 

I'm just going to try and enjoy this weekend anyway, doesn't matter if I've no idea and it's all a complete waste of my time, it's not wasted if I'm enjoying myself.