26.9.14

fuck this

I look at myself from above my head and wonder what on earth is it that I'm doing? Why am I doing this to myself? I get my stomach churned into knots while I await his replies, I seem to be thinking of everything I'm saying with so much concentration and...fear.

I guess I'm just nervous we won't meet up and I'm getting all excited for nothing...my job ends here soon...in a week, and I've nothing else lined up.

My life has gone to shit.
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