All these things I will never say, all these games that we play. Why can't I just tell you what's really going on with me? Where I really am, where I've really messed things up in the past, you're a clean slate but rather closed off from all these things. I get the impression that maybe you've been hurt before, maybe let down greatly in the past. Maybe you're scared of commitment, not looking for someone like me, like anyone, you just want to hop from ship to ship and see what you learn along the way.

I can't say I blame any of those choices. It's not as though we can easily meet and talk, you live far away and we both work different hours. But this is me, and when I've discovered something this special, I just want to pour everything I possibly can into it, because that's just the sort of person I am. I know that there's no need to rush, there's no need to add pressure, I just, want to have something to look forward to and I'm afraid you'll slip away...

You make me feel foolish by hanging on to your words, waiting for you to tell me when's good for you. Makes me feel like you don't really give a shit, and if that's the case, lets just stop this now, yeah? save a lot of time and upset...