Loser

Gloomy Friday.

Wish I hadnt looked on that stupid LinkedIn website. 

In truth, I know it's a website I should be a part of and very active on, but I'm afraid. People I used to know keep appearing, reminding me of these jobs they now have, and I don't think, deserve. I know that's not a nice thing to think, but I'm more upset by the fact that they're putting me off going for those similar jobs. It should be making me feel more determined, where really, I just hate the idea of getting attached and getting

My hopes up for nothing in return.

Yeah, but that's life, that's the game. And it goes on like this until one company gives you a chance. They're certainly not going to find you, you have to put in a certain amount of soul, as payment if anything.

You deserve it just as much them. You're talented, hard working, easy to get on with, puts in 110%. Everyone else is getting there, why can't you too? 

I will. As soon as I get home I'm going to start applying. Let's hope, let's hope that I don't give in too easily. 

You're starting a new life and you can't put up with the same shit anymore, you're worth more than that. But if you let them, they'll just carry on doing it.

You'll be a loser. And you are one for putting up with it so long.