He's so passionate, he's so generous and so unbelivably sweet. We wake up together in the mornings, talk about our dreams, go out for walks, go for amazing food or cool at home, have amazing sex...and at the end of may we're going to Paris. It really is a dream come true, and as much as I'm afraid it's all going to collapse, I'm also just enjoying every minuet. He is perfect, he makes me so happy already and I really do feel as though he's the the one. I don't think I've honestly ever thought or said that before, but it just feels so right. In the most daft way possible, we both didn't think anything was going to come of it, and yet, well. I hope I'm not tempting fate here.
Aw. He told me he loved me...I feel like it's probably just lust, he's just excited he's found someone for now. I am worried it'll sink in and he'll stray, but we'll just have to see.
I haven't been home in a long time, home with parents and home in Acton. My housemates are probably very confused, I know I've run the risk of losing touch a lil bit as I've been spending so much time with olive, but for the first time in a long time I'm happy that my life has a fresh start. I just need the new job now.
I'm a little worried that Nik might try and wrewin things for me, but then again, I never really felt we were much other than sex. The idea now feels horrible to recall, but he's a bit seedy and I just can't deny what connection I already have with olive. Maybe I should talk to him. But when have we ever talked before? He knows nothing about me actually, so what does he really expect? I hope it'll all be ok. I also hope he's not actually home when I head back later on!
Just got to be natural and have fun I suppose, it does feel as though it's been a while.
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