Seeing family has been lovely. Dear old mum and rick snipping at each other in the cute, entertaining way that they do, catching up on family news and of course seeing Ed and hearing about what he's been up to. Everything seems to be kicking up a notch in his life too, and actually I see reflections in his personal life to mine when I was his age. I'm a little worried about him actually, as it appears he's in an emotionally abusive relationship with a girl he fell for quickly and shares a student house with. He feels scared to leave because of this, and the fear of loneliness. But he does deserve much better, I do hope the right thing will happen for him, and it's not eating him away too much. He and I are just too alike, and I know he's an over analyser and thinker like me.
I'm looking forward to seeing dad tomorrow as it's his birthday. Maybe we'll see Grandmer too. And after we catch up I'll head back to London, maybe for about 8 and see Olive.
It's remarkable how quickly I've fallen for him really. I do love him and I know that it'll only get deeper over time too as a lot of my heart still belongs to joe, but as time heals us both I know that I really will completely engulf my life with his as he is a truly passionate and enthusiastic individual who dreams big and wants to embark on a real adventure with me. Well, at the moment anyway, I hope it won't fade, it certainly could do. But I hope it won't. I am certainly charmed by him and am so excited by the future. When I think of him, I feel as though I'm in a movie and the sun is shining golden and we are happy, walking hand in hand with the whole world ahead of us to explore, which we take on one restaurant, cinema and hotel at a time hehehe oh how I dream, he makes me a dreamer!
I am lucky, as tough as things can be and how I worry about my finances, things could be much worse.
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