worried and lost

I feel empty, lost, confused. I feel I've started many entries in this way. I'm scared about the change. I'm worried that I don't like my job but I've nothing else to go to. I'm afraid I'm falling for Dan which has caught me off guard, I hate looking at my phone waiting for him to text and he hasn't so I feel as though maybe he never will...I don't know why I think this, he has his own life, I think he had a good time today and last night. I just don't know.

You are lost and of course you're going to be confused. A big change has happened to you regarding your relationship and you're looking for someone to fill that void. You know as well as he does that at the moment it's not a big deal, but it's normal to become attached and want more from the situation. You're moving house, you've fallen out with mum, it all seems to be happening at once but it doesn't mean it's always going to be this way.

I am hopeful that I'll meet some new people soon and I can completely start again. There's a whole world out there, and yet I keep seeming to pick the people I've met before. There's something so commanding and mature about him, I just really want him to want me but he can be so hot and cold. He's so diligent in his studies, his work, his routines. All I do is interrupt them lets face it. And he could get any girl he wants. I hope he does message me this evening, it's still fairly early but then maybe I'll just try and sleep, hopefully sleep off these feelings of fear, I have work tomorrow :(