Thunder only happens when it's raining

Well last night was pretty incredible, but it has left me feeling lost and confused this morning. Soon I will return home and see joe and I'm going to have to decide whether I tell him or not. In the next hour or two I decide whether I tell dan or not...that this is my predicament. To sign a contract for a house for another year or to leave now to find a place on my own and maybe we could both make a go of it. I know that's not a decision he's going to make for me, but I just want to know if he sees me more than just sex and potentially more than that? Probably not after what I've done, and it's been 6 years, I know he's remembered every detail. 

He has the most amazing body, truly knows exactly what he's doing with it too. I found it cute how excitable yet nervous he was, which made me feel a bit clumsy but, there was a connection I'm sure...