I could mean all the nothing to you

Wow, well who knows. I mean, I don't know what to think really. It really does feels as though I've basically had a one night stand with someone I live with! It's surreal that he's not about the place, but he will be back on Saturday. He said he enjoyed it and wants to do it again, I do too but I just can't help but think about where all this might lead. Okay. So what have I picked up on so far;

- he is very flirtatious, he has clearly done this a lot before and that's fine because he is 28, he's been in the game longer than me. He isn't afraid of being quiet obvious with his hints.

- he cheated on his last girlfriend, and it sounded like a very similar situation I was also in. Doesn't make it ok, but we are certainly not too different in that respect. Somehow I do trust him all the same.

- he's on tour a lot, won't be about much, enjoys the drink and drug scene. But when he's around me, he talks about wanting to quit smoking etc so he obviously takes note that this isn't something I do a lot of.

- he's talked a lot about his future, what he wants next, a cottage, family, nice wife, I mean, there's no telling if these are things he really wants but it's interesting he's said it to me. Does he think that I want the same things?

- we connect but I'm still nervous around him, at the end of the day he doesn't know hardly anything about me.

- he's impulsive, which I love. Whether we'll go to Paris or not I just love the idea, which I'm sure if it is something with potential long term longevity, I would tire of, but now I like it a lot.

I guess I find him exciting, and to be honest he's just what I need right now. He may very well just be using me but I rather like the idea of using him to help me forget about things, let's hope things won't end too awkwardly and this could become even more interesting with time...