Avoiding the temptation of Paris.

One day I will be walking about the world an old lady, looking at youthful men, women and children in dismay. I hope to be all up to date with technology and the latest trends but in other ways I hope I'll be blissfully unaware and comfortably insconced in my own life and family. In my head I look around thinking I'm the youngest one and then I see someone younger get on board the train and then I realise that with every day that goes by, I am getting older. One day I'll be 40! With a house and a job and a proper life! Well, I mean the one I have now is proper I suppose but it still doesn't feel like it's properly started yet somehow. 

On the train again. Tempted by Eurostar to Paris...ah let it shuttle me under the sea, take me on a new adventure. The sun is shining, there's a chill in the air but not enough for the odd shoulder to be exposed and lots of walking about crowded streets and shops. I'm on my way to see him, because a few months ago I booked a ticket and completely forgot all about it. I was lucky to have today off but do have work tomorrow so I'm thinking about maybe venturing back this evening which should prevent any potential funny business. I mean, I don't know how I'll feel when I see him, but I do know that me and joe have put down a holding deposit on a house which means he's serious about all this and now there's no excuse to deny it. My body has also stepped in late to also stop things happening which is likely to be a blessing in disguise. I'm Nervous about the upcoming weeks but at the same time I know you just have to do these thing sometimes and I'm hoping that all this will be the push I need to be on track with the right job and hopefully the olde nerves will cool their guns and give me a bit of a break. 

I'm looking forward to living with guys again, I really miss male company. I don't know why but being around girls kinda puts me on edge, even if they're perfectly nice and not at all invasive. But who knows how it'll all pan out! I'll be right be the Thames, overlooking the bridge all lit up in the night. 

I need to go running again, or get to some gym. I miss the mental work out. Maybe there'll be one near the new place. Sigh. I'm tired. I've work for the next 6 days straight, I'm tempted to call in sick tomorrow for an extra day but I do need the money in all honesty, so, I've got to be responsible!