Nine days to go.

These days are slow. But I know that in only 9 days time things will be different and I'll be starting to feel a bit festive. There's so much to do before it but I'm just not feeling motivated enough. These days have been draining and I can't help but feel like a fool for changing everything in the first place. But I know at the time I was doing it for the right reasons. This will get better.

I wish I was cooler. I feel as though I stand out so much in a place like this. God, it's nearly time to start...where is all this leading? Where am I going?