Everything you wanted

I know all it takes is communication. Because I can't keep on hiding away from it all. It isn't fair to pick and choose what I tell and what I don't.

I've spent a lot of today trying to block it out and enjoy time with my family. I felt sad as I left mums this morning as I know what she wants me to do and I really don't want to disappoint her but it's just so hard. This is such an unpleasant point of my life. So dramatic I know, but I don't want to make the wrong decision.

Tomorrow we're taking my brother back to Uni which will be interesting as I've never been to that city before. It will also mean that dad will take me home and we'll have a bit of time to chat about things, I know he'll help make me feel a bit better about things. Maybe it is salvageable. Maybe it isn't all over.

I know that by laying my cards on the table gives him the chance to say how he feels about it all, who knows, maybe he feels the same.