But all I can think of it the sadness that I won't see that mysterious guy anymore :( I'm deciding on whether it's a good idea to try and talk to him, and how I go about doing this.
My mind is in two different places. One being - what the hell, why do you care!? You have a boyfriend and you seem to be happy there! But then the other part of my mind is far too curious and I just want to know his name... Although we've exchanged glances, I'm too shy and I feel he is to.
But, I'm thinking I go in the same carriage as him and sit where I can see him, catch his eye and smile warmly. Then I feel the ball is in his court!
I just really want to speak to him, find out what he's about, he's always been intriguing and I'll be sad if I don't at least give it a go. He could well be gay. Hmm. But he has sent a couple of looks my way, oh sod it, I've nothing to lose! I'll try the smile thing tomorrow and see how I feel about it. What if he ignores it? Then forget about it, easy. The hard part is of he smiles back! What do I do next!? The walk we share after the journey is brief and fleeting! I could ask where he works...hmm bit boring. Well, he might not even get the train tomorrow! And then the whole thing isn't meant to be!
I'm looking forward to this quandary being over more than the job. I'll just up early, get my make up looking nice...aw I miss this feeling, I haven't felt like this since I was about 13! With crushes in high school.
Lets be honest. He probably won't be on there. And if he is, he won't look at you. Or return the smile. So, expect that anything that comes from tomorrow is an absolute bonus!
God where are my balls...I used to be good at this!
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