What does any of it matter anyway?

I feel emotional today. I feel like I'm a young teenager who doesn't want to go to school. I just want to stay in bed and do nothing all day, this weekend can't come quickly enough. I've so much to do before then and I'm not sure i see it happening somehow. 

I look up at the news in this busy station and see the catastrophes going on in the world that I'm fortunate enough to be avoiding, and the feeling has vanished and I feel lucky to be going to work, to hopefully have a normal day. My heart goes out to those in America who have recently endured a devestating tornado...why do I get myself so worked up? Like mum said, if I do my best but it doesn't work out I can always come home and start again...I just want to exceed their expectations, i'm not sure i have the energy. 

I wonder what will end up happening...I just hope this week goes ok.