The weekend is over and that dreading feeling of Monday is starting to creep in and I can't help but notice that now is the longest possible time before I get those two wonderful days off again!
I feel as though my first week went well,although I think they may have been expecting me to pick things up a bit quicker,but there's only so much one can do on a 9 hour day. The 2nd week always goes better,as things aren't so new anymore, I hope that by Friday everything will have slotted into place. We'll have to see what today will bring.
My boss at bay and brown rang me last week,left me a fleeting and angry voice mail 'wanting to speak to me' and I know exactly why. What with all this new routine, the early mornings and the late nights, doing anything remotely creative has completely slipped to the back of my mind! And I have forgotten to inform her of the changes. Although I am far to scared to ring her, eventhough I'm not on a contract and I don't owe her anything, she probably feels differently! Urgh. I'll have to email her in a bit...what to say! Well I guess I just need to be honest about things. I know my parents want me to keep doing it,I shouldn't burn my bridges as they say! I certainly don't want to leave things on a sour note. But I'm not completely sure what's going to happen with my current situation, I know that when I was on work placement it took me about a month to get into it and actually took me two months to start enjoying it. I doubt this time will be any different and as this job isn't a placement, there's even more pressure on me to make a good impression.
Ah well. You can only do your best, and this is a test. If it doesn't work out then it doesn't work out, and I'm not cut out for sales or anything related! I didn't even think that it was a sales position but there are targets I need to meet, which really puts me on edge. But then again, I still want to exceed them.
A gloomy morning, I feel rubbish. I just want to go home. Maybe I'll see that attractive guy on the train,I've seen him every day and I've started to look forward to seeing him!! I wish I could pluck up the courage and smile at him,but then what? Nothing.
Maybe I'll update on the way home as to how today went,I'm starting to feel nervous.
No comments:
Post a Comment