what is normal?

I got so worked up on Friday, I really need to stop doing it to myself. These old habits die hard...

The sun was out for a large part of today, I decided to venture out of the house and do what I used to love doing; taking photographs. Ever since mentally and physically moving away from student life, I found lots of things I used to take pleasure in I've stopped doing these days. I feel like there's still a piece of me up there, because I feel like every time I get close to someone new here I'm always saying 'sorry, you've caught me at a confusing time of my life.' Decided not to go out this evening, I'm not sure why I did, but I felt like I needed a bit of time to let things catch up with me.

I just wish I could know whether I'm in the right place. I need something to aim towards that isn't ridiculously out of the equation, something that is within my grasp.

I wish I was by the sea. I wish I could have a bit of time away from things. I feel like I'm wishing for too much. One minuet I think I know what I'm ready for, the next, I just wish I had a clue. Hopefully things will feel more 'normal' soon.