Tell me it's the perfect time

I've been a bit on edge these past couple of weeks. With so much going on and taking up what's left of my mind, I haven't been able to find any time to catch up with my thoughts. It's been an amalgamation of new jobs, uncreative pro-activity, catching up with old friends and losing new ones, all wrapped up with an underlying feeling of being alone. I'm back there again. I just need to get back on track, but the thing is, I don't know what that is anymore. The track for me used to be something to do with school or college, but I'm not that person now, and I'm a long way away from it. I want to be in that place where all my grown-up friends are at the moment, but there's also a part of me that yearns for that student lifestyle that I feel I wasted away on relationships and shit friendships. If I could go back and do it all again, I would. Even though I got the best grade I could ever want, I'd love to re-do some of the choices I made.
Of course, these thoughts are all wasted because there's no way I can go back to those times. I've just got to learn from my mistakes. I caught up with an old Uni friend over Skype, and it made me feel so happy to see her face again. I always admire her honesty with me, just always told me honestly what to do in situations and out of everyone I knew back then, she always gave the best advise. I wish I could have got a bit closer to her. Maybe I'll go and visit her, she did say I was welcome to! That would be nice. I can always build on the friendship that we do have now!
We talked a lot about Sian, the girl who ground me down, ate me away from the insides and took all my wonderful free time and used it for her stupid problems, used me only for a shoulder to cry on, and my achievements as a benchmark for her own. I can safely say I do feel happier without her in my life. But talking about her made me feel sad. Sad that I was idiot for living with her, giving her all my time and loyalty whilst others fled...but also sad that she probably has no idea that she's done anything wrong. Ever.
It also made me feel that, all that time I wasted with her, I could have used up with some better friends. I still hold out the hope that my true friends are still waiting for me...only a few more years I reckon. Hopefully when I get a new, proper job.
My new job is going well, I've met some nice people there. But it's not what I want to be doing for a very long time though. In my free time, I need to do design works but also start creating some proper applications to jobs I really want.
I just wish I had a bit more pep...I need to do jogging again.