Making wishes in my mind

I've found this week hard when coming to articulate myself. I doubt this entry will be any different.
The new job has been started,which is a good thing. It's just still working at my other job is very tiring and there has been no room for anything at all creative. My fears are becoming real,things I never wanted to take over my life are,and my main priorities are being put on the back burner. I keep telling myself that it's good that I'm recognising it,but what I'm not recognising all tackling is my saying 'yes' to everyone and never getting a break.
Anyway. At least I'm getting a bit of social activity,I really do think I would go man without it.

Waiting for a train home to see mum and the family for an evening. It'll be another early start Monday morning,everything feels rushed. It'll be nice to see her for a bit of Mother's Day and my brother to,I just wish I didn't have to come back again...
I still feel lost,yet trapped in this current situation. I'm not making enough money to save for a place of my own,joes not ringing in any money so we can't get away even for a short holiday somewhere, I'm still working so many hours each week for what?i know I'm not alone on that front. I just need to keep treading this water for something better to come along in the near future.

Empty, tired and low. Making wishes in my mind. When will it change?