'I've woken up surrounded by me...'

Oh here we go again.
The snow is falling from the sky,blown about by gusts of wind,umbrellas are up and hats are on,everyone looking as though they've already had enough. I hope I don't look like, but then I probably do because I have.
On my way to London again, feeling (again,) dissatisfied with my designs. I know there will be some sort of criticism that will mean I'll have to stay all day to get nowhere at all. Don't get me wrong, I know that criticism is all a part of this design malarkey, but sometimes it's so ridiculous to change the faults in the timescale I just feel it's said for the sake of saying it. But anyway, I'm hoping that only in a three hours I'll be heading back home again. I'm seeing my family later, thank god! Some normality! I hope I won't cry when I see them. We're going to see a gig which will be great. I've got to get back in time for blood tests to make sure I'm not allergic to anything, I already know I'm not. I doubt I'll make it back in time, I'll probably have lots of tweaking to do...I just want to start all over again. Scratch everything I do now off the record and start somewhere new. A challenge, but hopefully it'll give me a sense of purpose, unlike what I'm feeling now...