There have been a lot of moments where I've wanted to update,mostly with the same depressing drivel. But I'm actually feeling better about things today.
I'm on the train up north to see some Uni friends,which should be fun. Although a lot of the time I feel a lil disjointed from her,she helps take me away from the reality of things and engulfs me in her very different world. Where haircuts matter and everything has to be statement! It's good because we don't really talk about me much at all,which I think is for the best.
Seeing my lovely family was brilliant fun, and Everything Everything were probably the best band I've ever seen live. It really did lift my spirits, I laughed a lot.
Work is still very much the same, but yesterday I awoke to a huge bunch of lilies at the bottom of the bed and a lovely hand written note,it was the most lovely and thoughtful idea, he remembered yet were my favourite, I was so touched. A lovely surprise! We went out for dinner and had a bit too much wine. He does make me smile. From that point of view things are going well.
Trying to get career advise from anyone is like getting blood out of stone. I'm just going to do what I think is best, it hasn't let me down yet. I just can't stand being in a job where I get nothing from it but boredom and stress. But the wrong kind of stress, the sort that where I'm worrying all the time about whether I'm spending my time effectively. It's not going to be easy though,I'll just have to do it because its going to get worse the longer I leave it. Because there will always be something.
I hope this weekend goes ok!
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