'If you're looking for any sort of sign, this is it'

This year has gone by so quickly, I can't believe it'll soon be drawing to a close.

I guess everyone feels a little remorseful of another year going by, for everybody, a lot can happen in 365 days.I know it has for me,I can't believe that I started the year with a final project at Uni,not knowing what grade I'd be getting, living in an awful, stale house with corrupt individuals, working at a restaurant as well...then moving back down south again! And, starting again I suppose.It's a strange feeling, knowing I used to be have one life and have now gained another it seems.Sometimes,I'm not sure it's one that I fully enjoy,but I'm trying.
I'm giving it a good go.And for next year, I'm feeling very ambitious indeed! There's nothing wrong with setting yourself high goals,and like I've always said,it's important to have something to look forward to,even if it might be a lot of hard work.

I'm looking forward to Christmas,like I do every year but this time I'm even more excited. Any excuse to come home and get all festive! I hope it won't be as stressful as previous years,although that can never be predicted. Things are different at home these days, things are much more laid back and I do feel that it'll be fun whatever happens! It'll mark the end of a lot of things for me, but also my family to, and the new year will hopefully bring positive changes for them, to. Like Ed and his Uni plans, dad and Sally moving in together, Mum getting a new job, Rick working less hours...We'll just have to see what happens.

Now a new week has begun, the weekend feels like it was a long time ago but I had a nice time.I went home after work and J came with me, stopped over at mum's then went to the Post Secret Live event in London. I've always wanted to see Frank and hear about how he came up with the brilliant project,but I also wanted to see the other avid followers of his website.It was a nice evening,I was a bit unsure as to whether J would like it as much as me,and I'm not sure if he did.But then again,it's a once in a lifetime event,he doesn't come to the UK much so I though despite the expense to just go for it.
One thing it certainly did do was open my eyes to the world of 'real' problems people have,and I came away with quiet a bit guilty for all these silly things I think about and how I get wound up by...nothing much at all!
He ended the slideshow with 'if you're looking for any sort of sign, this is it' and it did make me think of all these things I put on hold, or things I ignore til I get the go ahead. Sometimes it's the just doing it yourself that's the sign maybe.
These are just rambling thoughts...

I hope this time next year I won't be sitting in a freezing cold Childrens botique shop, worrying about rushed,poor quality designs sent off in the small hours of the morning...but in a head office position for a exclusive brand in London, sharing a small flat, still creating designs that are much more defined and sophisticated...that's my dream.

And the only way to get close is by chipping away every day...