'everybody has a life, a private life and a secret life...'

I know in a few months time I will look back on this post (probably the whole blog,) and shudder for it's pathetic content. There is also no real way to start this, so I'll just go ahead with it...Ian Watkins,really?
I wouldn't say I was die-hard fan of the Lostprophets,but sure I had a couple of albums and at one time in my life I really had a lot of respect for them. It just really goes to show that nobody is as they seem. And everyone has a life, a private life and a secret life. I suppose you could say I'm stunned! But why? I suppose if you trawl back far enough there are post titles with Ian Watkins lyrics. He used to be a little crush of mine before I even knew what a relationship was!
But, as I'm home alone, I am listening to an old album of theirs. I feel like I'm letting a lot of people down,(but shhh nobody will ever know!) but it brings back a lot of memories for me, of times I still think about. Being refused bale is a pretty strong indication that the police are serious about their accusations. It's a lot more than exchanging a couple of fan photos and whatnot,which is what I originally thought.Ah well. We'll just have to see what happens.

Anyway, enough of that! I never really talk about the headlines but for some reason this one struck a chord with the younger me.
I think it's tomorrow which is claimed to be the day the world ends. I'm not sure how I feel about that fact, I remember last time someone told me that,it was a crazy busy shift at work, millions of things to do, I just shrugged 'bring it on' but this time I thinking, 'surely not.' In my heart of hearts, I don't really think it will be.Maybe it'll be the end of something symbolic,and the start of something new instead.
But what if it was? They say 'Live each day as if it were your last' which is a good little saying to live by when living life to the full.But if the world ended,and I see my life whizzing by, would I be happy? Would I feel I've made the most of every opportunity?
I don't know. One day,I would have said yes.But now I feel this year could have gone better and I'm really excited by the prospect of next year...