'if you're going to walk on water make sure you where comfortable shoes...'

I'm pretty sure that I'm looking for happiness in the wrong places.i've seemed to have recently found myself daydreaming about situations that are unrealistic,don't add up or just don't make sense. I feel that the choices i've made as of late have been the wrong ones,obsessing over how different and better things would be now if I'd chosen something different, when really,I should just accept that this is what life is all about and work with what I have now,which I seem to be incapable of realising its actually pretty good. I have never wanted to be one of those people who never seems to have enough or be comepletely satisfied.i used to be so positive,I never used to dwell as much as I do now. I just wish I could get rid of this sick feeling I feel with other peoples successes. I just avoid social networking sites and try and mislay my phone to avoid confronting it. I'm finding the transition from student to adult with a job and responsibilities increasingly difficult. Its not that I'm not ready for what falls under the umbrella of adulthood,it's just it seems a long way away. I'm trying...probably just not hard enough. I should at least be grateful that what I'm doing at the moment is a step in the right direction,financial concerns take the shine off it a bit. I just seem to find myself unable to pinpoint what career path I really want to take.  I know I'm not alone. But I do feel it,right now. I feel disconnected from those around me. Whenever I get the chance I go home, as I find motivation there and there's always plenty going on which gets me geared up for the week ahead. It's not that I don't enjoy where I am now but sometimes I feel like something is missing and I seem to find it when I'm away. I'm worried about his brother a bit,as much as he is kind he is odd. It's very difficult to read how he feels or if he's happy and although it's none of my business I feel that I do have some sort of social responsibility for his mental well-being, seeing him every day. But it's hard when it comes to things like this, other peoples emotional troubles are really to be handled professionally but I worried if its left simmering too long it'll eventually boil over with terrible, messy consequences. I might ask dad for some advise. Halfway through the week as I'm hoping the rest of it will be ok, hope it will be kind to me. I feel like I just need something to shake me up,give me a kick, a boost, an injection of some positive-ness to get me back on track. I guess you've got to hunt it down,not wait for it to find you...I might be waiting a long time.