'humour me just think it through,it's all I ever asked of you'

Been getting inspiration from some of the most unpredictable places lately,and although I'm still I'm scared of what this is all about and what my future holds,I feel as though I'm not so alone in my fears.i get frustrated with myself sometimes,I et so carried away with my own chaos happening day to day in my mind,I dont find the time to wonder about other peoples well being,who have all sorts of things going on who are the ones who need to real support.sigh.need to get job hunting,but it's really hard to find the time with all this free-lance malarkey...I'm not sure I'm really cut for it.but I've got to keep on trying and not give up. I'm concerned how much I keep thinking about the past and all the people who used to be so close aren't anymore.i know that's what life is all about but it seems such a shame.i miss you and I think about you almost daily, I know we were never compatible and wouldn't be now,but there's still that part of me that wants to try.itcouldnt happen,but oh I wish I could tell you,although I don't think any good would come from it...