Passion(less) pit

You're in my dreams, I long to see you again and I'm not entirely sure why,or what I'd even say. So much has changed now,too much probably, I know that there's no way I could go back to how I was then and I'm not sure you'd accept me.But I want to tell you that I miss you so much,but what good would it do? I made my bed and now I'm laying in it,uncomfortably so,but am stable enough to continue on this crazy, uncertain path towards...I have no idea.I did so well at Uni and was so enthusiastic,but now I'm in the real world and realise that these things are going to take a heck of a long time to progress,I just want to curl up in a ball and go into hibernation...patience where have you gone?