13.5.12

So much sitting and waiting and staring.Where did all my passion go?This time last year, I was a completely different person,and although I made a lot of mistakes, at least I was happy with how I was physically.I've decided it's time to take control again,as I've let myself fray at the edges and fall into old routines and stopped caring about how I appeared and what I ate.THIS WILL CHANGE.So I have proposed myself a detox week,where I cleans myself and see how it all goes and how I feel by the end of it.My plan is simply this; -Keep myself as busy as possible at all times.This means a prompt 7.30 start to the day to do Uni work.Drink a glass of water and update this blog to how I'm feeling and whatnot.I then do lots of work,put on music,put on films,completely make the time fly by.When it comes to about 12.00,have a bowl of porridge and eat it in 10 mins.Then drink another glass of water.Do more work,uni work,lots of stuff.Then when I feel myself start to get really hungry,have a cup of soup,about 4pm but as long as I can postpone it for.Then have another one in the evening and a hot chocolate if I feel I have deserved it. My current weight is 11 and a half stone god damn it.Lets see if I can get back to the way I was...

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22.10.24

Trying to hold it together, trying hard not to cry. Nothing has happened, it's just I feel very overwhelmed. Tired, deeply tired, to my ...