'You look as though you've been for breakfast at the heartbreak hotel...'

Being home always allows me to have a bit of time to think.Seeing old friends forces to me reflect to,sometimes.I'm kinda bored of missing the 'good old days' but when once upon a time when you were once expecting so much from everybody and yourself,to then find everything goes in different directions,one can't help it. Am I sad by the way things have turned out? Listening to Alex Turner having just watched a program about Lucian Freud,and I'm feeling inspired and excited for the future.I don't know who's painted in the picture beside me,but I hope there's someone there.I hope I make a difference in the world somewhere down the line,I hope I get a job in the big city and continue to be creative as I am now...