Tell me if you feel this pain

People always want to change me. I'm not sure it is that brings it on,but when given the chance,close ones to me just don't hold back;what to wear,how to do my make-up,how to say things,word things...making me grow up maybe?I'm not sure.Once I was flattered,but now I just want people to leave me be.I'll change when I want to,not because it'll make me look better. Been a rough month so far,well-being has been at an all time low,in addition to my emotional mindset,still in limbo,still worn out,uni results however have been at their highest yet,and where I should be celebrating I've found myself off the rails again.I know the time will come where I'll get myself out of this crazy mess,and that will be when I'm away from here and the people who surround me,their fake personalities and stupid arrogance wears me away and I long for company to savour long into the night,good conversation about many broad and deep subjects,good food and wine,desires to travel to explore,no more dwelling,no more two-faced behaviours,just honest truthful company. One day maybe...