Clicked.

It's pretty absurd what's going on in my head right now.But I know I'm not far away from facing that dreading decision;
Do I go with what I know,or do I go for this chance before it fades away?

I am comfortable where I am now.I am with someone who loves me,and although our future is a bit foggy,i'm sure if I laid it on the line changes would be made to that.I know he'd do lots for me if I asked...however,now I find myself tempted by something completely new,and I can't help by wonder what it would be like...

The idea of hurting him destroys me.I can't see it happening as I care about him far to much.I would hate for him to feel in any way inadiquate because he's made me so happy and he still does to this day.It's just,maybe not as much as it once used to?
This is a risk,this is a gamble.

Maybe I should go with what dad suggests,that I will know when to make the right decision.I will know it when I feel it.It's just playing the waiting game I suppose...

The guilt overtakes me sometimes and I can't help but cry,I can't help the way I feel but I in my mind i'm being deceitful letting my feelings stray,and stray to such intensity.It won't be long until I drag this other person in with me and I would hate to let them both down,or worse,losing everything I have....I'm afraid.