I never thought I'd say it,but I'm here again.

I want what I can't have.

The guilt overcomes me even without saying a word.In a stupid way,just finding somebody else attractive feels disrespectful to Joe.I know it's human,but to me,it's a strange occurrence.

As soon as I saw him,he was just so intriguing to me.The way he carried himself,the way he smiled yet couldn't make eye contact,much similar to me,the work he does,an air of mystery about him.I just liked him immidietly.
Only recently have we began talking over messages,he's going to hopefully teach me some photoshop...I want to know him so much more.I really do.

I hope he wants to know me to.
I hope he'll try.

Oh,these temptations.

Of course,I'd tell Joe anything,but at the moment,it's simply appreciation in thoughts,never anything more.