Where's the respect?

I can't believe i've had to tell you again.
I can't believe how much it gets to me.

I suppose it's the times when he does these little things to let me down I realise how much I care about him to my core because it leaves me feeling so upset.That guy at work was simply a piece of eye-candy I thought was attractive,Joe is something so dear to me he sometimes makes me care so much about not upsetting him,I start to shake. I become so feeble and weak and scared and all those things when I just want everything to be okay.I want the horrible feeling to go away.

I hate having to tell him.I don't like always being the one to do things,make the first move,tell him when things are good and when things are bad.I want him to know.We've been together long enough.I just want him to understand and feel what I feel sometimes.

I would love to have the same effort, time and respect that I put into the relationship...returned.