I'm done done DONE! with all of these negative feelings...

I really am.
It's all the same depressing drivel,if I can't turn my thoughts around i'm hardly going to be any fun to be around.

If i'm doing my best all the time,and putting in 110% effort,there's not really a lot more I can do to make anything better or effect how people behave or what they do,so why put myself through even more tiresome worry and analysing when it won't get me anywhere more than in a complete muddle?

What i've got now is pretty fantastic.And i'm likely to mess it all up and lose it all if I carry on going the way I am.I've never worried about such things in my life,why do I worry now,when I should be feeling most secure?Why aren't I enjoying what I have now?

Less than a month to go,it's been tiring and a lil troublesome,it's brought stresses and strains to most people and most relationships I have with these people...but I think it's fair to say i've had enough of all that now-sure,i'm aloud a bad day once in a while,but it's about time I stopped dwelling and over reacting and being ridiculous and start...living!