Highs and lows.

I suppose it's safe to say that this weekend hasn't really been mine and joes best weekend.But then it's silly to think they all will be,it's just a bit of a shame when they aren't as amazing as usual.
I got emotional for some unexplained reason one day,he suffered money depression today and hit me with a bit of a bombshell that she may rent out their spare room.After which a few days before we both realised it was unlikely we'd live together next year.It was a little bit to much for me to handle.But at least this time around I told him how I felt.
As always he understood where I was coming from and he reassured me that there isn't anything going on there at all,she really is just a friend and I do believe him.It just upsets me that she's there so much more than I am.I feel like a bit of a failure in that respect.However,there's nothing I can do about it really,only what I am doing.after some talking and thinking we both discovered I was being silly,again.And yes,I know I am,but sometimes I need to be told that!Sometimes he does leave me feeling a bit in the dark and he knows that to.
I was so upset when he said we wouldn't be able to live together because he's flat friends would think it was unfair,they can't live with theres to.And I can sort of understand but at the same time,I think that's a lame reason.But thinking about it more I see it is probably wise that the final year is one we spend in our own places,because it's going to be an intense year.Time alone is important.But he seems to think we will after that year,and that,oh that fills me with so much joy.

I'm so lame,but it does make me feel so happy.
I love having things to look forward to.