'I never thought I would say that...I never thought they'd be you.'

Perhaps not having a phone is a blessing.
I just,hate the erraticness of my emotions lately,it's obviously pure exhaustion-my day is mainly fuled by adrenalin and when I get home,nobody seems to care and I just find myself wondering 'what's the point?' way more than 'well this is all pretty good.' I really hope this is something I'm doing now to help with the future.So many others wouldn't view it that way,but right now,it's all that's keeping me going.

It has been a while since feeling like this,and I know it is other worries that make me worry,it's all familiar.I just want it to get out of system so I can on out and get on with my day/life.
Where has the old me gone once again?I used to be so much better at handling this sort of stuff.
However,in a random turn of events,I saw my old best friend catching the same train as me from London,and we had a great long while to finally have a much needed catch up.I miss her so much,I miss old friends so much,I love reflecting on the past times and I love how she makes me feel youthful.I thought as we laughed about,well life,that somebody like that provides a great mirror for yourself.As you can see your reflection on them-if i've changed at all,if i'm actually okay it's just I miss old familiarities.And that's exactly that.As we're both off doing other things in our lives and rarely find the time to cross wires and talk,it's so nice when that time comes to see how marvellously easy all falls back into place,as if things have never changed.I realised how much I needed it,someone to really talk,without any effort just...getting along so well,time passing too quickly!
I'm going to see my friend Sian on monday,have a break from it all and hopefully make this week go past so fast.It will be nice to catch up,and hear how she's enjoying her placement,she's always up to something exciting and I enjoy it,because she deserves it.I'm glad she's making the most of things and not counting down the days like I am!

Another count down week begins.
This time next week I'll be up north again.I just can not wait!