30.9.10

My secret regret...

I regret that I don't know how to communicate with you,mother.I don't like the way I am around you,I'm not my real self and it frustrates me how much I hold back from you because i'm so scared of your dramatic reactions.
I know we could be such good friends,but there's some sort of block you have around me and I feel like you don't care.
Money seems to be the key thing for you,and i'm sorry,but I don't share that-it saddens me that you base success on how much money someone makes.I don't like how disjointed we've become,and I regret that I don't know how to rekindle our relationship.

I just wish you'd show a bit more compassion and care towards me,I do absolutely nothing wrong and I put in 110% effort to make you proud of me.

While I carry on with each day wondering how to try and fix what we have,I guess i'll just have to concentrate on making myself proud...
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