Is your fate really sealed?

Some interesting thoughts hit me today.I saw a man say with such joy and enthusiasm exclaim; 'well my fate it sealed-so i'm just going to sit back and enjoy the ride.' It really made take a moment to think.It's not the first time i've thought about this before,it's a rather deep subject but it's an interesting perspective and I suppose it's not overly religious,just an unusual angle.
Perhaps from the moment we're born our life is ahead of us,and we are almost programmed to continue along a path,each persons choices and decisions interlocking to form individual lives.But at the same time,there isn't any real way of knowing if this is the case.It is strangely comforting though.I suppose it's the fate of another person that is sealed because on the outside that's all you can really see...hmmm.
Sometimes,I sit and look out at the windows and wonder.All these different people going about their daily lives,some gliding through effortlessly,others looking as though pulling a smile is a struggle,others faking it,others content with it.It's at moments like that it would be amazing to hear peoples thoughts and know their agendas.It's intrusive indeed,but it would be amazing to hear the thoughts and processes everyone goes through,to have a bit of contrast to my own.

I already feel so much better for getting away from home.In a way,I feel as though i'm getting away from my badgering thoughts.Of course i'm thankful for being at home and I largely have a wonderful time.However,it's at times when i'm alone or not doing much,horrible thoughts start creeping in and I don't like it.It churns me up inside everything seems to be very dramatic.But getting back here,and with familiar surroundings and exciting things on the horizon I feel like my old humble self again.(Am I humble?haha.) A fair few interesting things have gone on as of late,but it's safe to say that i'm going to stop worrying about things that are okay.It doesn't do ANY good whatsoever.If my fate is truly sealed,no amount of worrying is going to change whatever happens in the future so it's energy I burn away,turning others away with it.I realised that I will worry when I have a real reason to.
And that realization feels amazing.Like a real weight has been lifted.

I got upset in front of Joe the other morning,which was pretty embarrassing.It's not something i've done much in front of him,and hope not to do much of again,but I feel so defeated letting it all out.I know how important it is to share things now,even if it's not very pleasant things.But I didn't really tell him what was bothering me.But all the same,it made me feel silly and it's all fine now.I'm glad I didn't though, because if he did know,it may have wrewined us.

Taking each day is the way forward.I know I keep saying it,but it's about time to actually take it on board!