re-think and re-fresh

Maybe somehow he read my thoughts...I don't know!But last night was wonderful,we connected again and I felt as excited,glowing and as warm and tingly as I did in the first week or two of going out together.Maybe he did somehow know,hmmm.
He's gone to a festival for a few days,so I'm expecting not to hear from him during that time,however i'll see him when we're on holiday which will be amazing.And then,i'll be back to Huddersfield for a couple of weeks so we'll see a fair bit of each other I hope.I'm sad i'm not with him at the festival,i'm not going to one at all this year.I did enjoy Reading last year,but Ben tainted it a fair bit and the people I went with have kinda dispersed so it didn't really crop up to go again.Plus I don't have the money to!But being amongst it all,the live music,there is just...no comparrison.
Ah well,perhaps glasto next year!
I trust him,I do.I know he'll probably do some drugs and get very drunk for almost all of it which worries me a tiny bit,but then it's stupid to worry.It really is.
I've got to stop being so intense.I mean,at the end of the day it's only becuase I care so much for him,but I know it could get out of control and over the top.It's not happened to me before,but too much time thinking over bad thoughts can make you act in strange ways and I don't want that to ever happen.It's just not fair,for anybody.It would be insulting and unfair to Joe.

I look forward to returning to Huddersfield.I think i'm looking forward to it even more knowing that i'll be returning home a few weeks after to start a new routine,but for that few weeks it'll be back to student normality for a while,which I need right now.I'm about to go on holiday with family and they're already winding me up,but then,that's just my mood today!We'll have to see.

Ah well,I fancy reading back old entries.I don't have anything exciting or interesting to report,only that i'm feeling a bit happier and less worried and anxious as I was before,and wrongly before.Stepping back and having a re-think and refresh can do the world of good sometimes.