After thought;

I suppose I just can't assume the worst all the time.I can't always keep tabs on things,trying to keep everything in order or,try and control everything becuase I simply can't.There are some things I can't control.That's what makes life unpredictable and exciting.
I don't have the energy or the emotional tether to make up these things in my head and keep turning them over and around,growing more intense and unwell,it really is no way to live and enjoy...anything.It will eventually drain me if it gets the better of me,I will no longer be happy,will no longer be me and people will realise.And things won't be resolved,they will be wrewined and changed.
For gods sake I need to get a grip of things here and learn,for one to step back and enjoy the unknown and the exciting oppertunities that are to come,just becuase I don't know what may happen doesn't mean it's going to be a bad thing.And secondly to learn from it all.
If we are to maintain this relationship(-which I very hope we will,) I need to be prepared for something similar to this to happen again,and I need to know that reacting in the way I did (to myself as I did not share this,) is unbelievable.Especially when nothing has happened.Assuming it will is not careful,it is absurd.

I think I may just be tired!