Elephant Parade

So here it is.
Moving day.
It would have been so nice to have a pleasant lead up to this day,I still don't know if it's all going to go ahead due to the late posting of the forms on Stev's part.I don't blame him,it was a all a last minuet rush to be honest.
I can understand why people say that moving house-even if you're a student,can be one of the most stressful times of ones life.My body just aches,every bit of me requires warmth and safety.And I feel like a bit of a fool becuase everyone else seems to be dealing with it all perfectly fine.I however,seem to be fearing the worst all the time.
Which isn't really that right.
I'm getting used to be worried and on edge the whole time.I look forward to the time where it's all sunk in,and a new pattern and routine has been resumed.Celebrate my third year in place now,at a place called BoConcept in addition to Jimmy Choo so,that's so good.But I haven't been able to enjoy it as there has been too much going on instead.
Anyway.
Dad is coming up any minuet now to help me move in.I am so grateful,I really don't think I could have moved it all on my own-it would be madness!well,in a day certainly.I feel so sad in an empty room,i've left a couple of photos pinned up just for a lil tiny bit more uniqueness from the faded blue walls and the smell of bleach and cleaning sprays.As stressed as I am,I am excited about making a house a home again.
It will be nice to see Dad again to,it always feels like such a long time.I really wanted Joe to meet him to,but as he's moving out today to we've both got so much going on I doubt it's going to happen.It makes me sad though,because I know they'll get on well.And i've met his to.But then again,i'm sure they'll meet at a much better date.I hope anyway.
I'm going to try not to worry anymore.Try really hard not to.Because,there is a risk of things going wrong-that is what life is all about.Things come and take you by surpirse,just like the good and amazing things in life.I need to be prepared to deal with things alone,because I know I am strong enough to.Ideas can be more frightening than the real thing,and at the end of the day everything that happens,happens for a reason.And I can't change that.
You only live once.And it all goes so quickly.I can't spend my life on a knife edge,being scared and worried about anything and everything!

Okay,well here we go!