Closure.

Closure is a wonderful feeling.
It was safe to say that I was worried about today,but I can truly say that a massive weight has been lifted.
As soon as I saw him,I felt nothing but pleasantness.The feeling of suddenly letting go of all the anger,saddness and memories of bad times.When we smiled it was only of pure friendship,nothing underlying or hidden.It was as though a massive wave washed over me,and I felt only gratitude seeping through me that I was now,so happy-but of different reasons-nothing to do with him,never would be to do with him again,and he could never change why I was happy,comfortable and secure,he wasn't at that level any more,and I left feeling that if I see him in the street again,I won't feel mad or nervous or awkward.But it'll be a passing wave of acknowledgeable,as if a wave to the past as we continue with our lives today.

I know when he looked at me,he was sorry for what he put me through.And I could tell this as he explained how he had change to make his current relationship much better today.I didn't feel he was rubbing it in my face at all-in fact it was if he was telling me that I had some way helped him,to become a better person.

For once,I think he may be.

And this is not the start of anything,but a pleasant end to an unpleasant era of my life.
Of course,that all ended when I met Joe.But still,in the back of my mind I feared the day I saw him again-what would he do,say,be like around me.
But now I know.

And it feels wonderful.