I'm not sure why it makes me happy to know that he regrets what he did,but it does.It feels like some closure,some definate closure.
I haven't even thought about him before now,but when Robyn said he came over drunkenly and made a big point after she told him about her boyfriend issues,she felt he wanted to know how I was doing.There are parts of me that miss him as a friend,the chats we used to have about film and music,but in truth,they were rare an occasion,and they usually resulted in an argument or dissagreement of some kind.I also don't care for the music he likes and the films he always used to go on about,so i'm not missing anything much.But it's nice to know,becuase I honestly don't care.And that,in the end of that awful mess-his awful fight for power over me-I actually win.But i'm meant to be adult about all of this,so nobody actually wins.
It just gives me the chance to be a little bit smug.
It's easter weekend,so i'm enjoying family times.I miss joe so much :( It's like missing an arm.I can't wait to see him again soon,although i'm afraid Im fatter than before!hehe,as if he's going to mind.
This holiday has actually been the longest we've been apart,and it hasn't been as bad as I thought it would be,although he did make me worried one evening,saying he missed me so much he wondered how we'd deal with the summer.
It's true,I worry alot.But,why worry about time that will come in good time?hehe,I'm sure we'll make it work.I certainly hope that we will.I don't want to loose him becuase I miss him so much.That would be so sad.
It's interesting how a facebook stalk can take you back to days long ago,with the girls who were hot when I was not,and coolness depended on how 'adult' you were etc...looking at them now is strangely comforting,and makes all of what parentals said true.So many babies,so many new relationships...old ones!aww.
Yesyes,I'm looking forward to escaping back to huddersfield to my other home.
I need some huggs :) hehe.
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