Such sad and lonely posts.

I've been taking time out to read some of my past entries.
I had no idea I was so unhappy inside!
Clearly,I'm not unhappy.But I do so love to dwell on silly little things,and manage to spread them out over 200 entries I mean,it's so dull and bleak.
I write when I'm worried or nervous.My senses and emotions are heightened,and I can just write better when i'm a tiny bit down,I over dramatise things in some sort of cathartic attempt to drain it out of my system,and it does work.But reading them back is a chore!

Anyway.
CV has been started,not yet finished.The portfolio has been started,but not yet finished.Starting is the hardest part,so we're getting there.I don't know why I feel this pressure right now,but I suppose I just don't like waiting as it's an important year.
I just got back from Stephs,and she had hit a bit of a downer.I like it that people rely on me to cheer them up,and I think she felt better when she talked about what was bothering her.She made me feel better to,that,i'm not the only one who worries the way I do.

Been entering many competitions for my photos,and am just getting rediculously excited about it!I shouldn't.I'm not much of a winner really.It's funny really,some people just have it-they win at bingo,get their names pulled out of a hat etc but I never do.I suppose I'll get there with determination!hehe.

Tired,sleepy,need to go to bed.Tomorrow's textile horizon module which will either inspire me or demotivate me,so mucho sleep will help aid whatever outcome!
Hopefully going to the seaside with Joe over the weekend :) Yay!