I cry.

I sinserly,want to cry my heart out.
I feel so weak and heavy,I just want to go home and let all this bad feeling and saddness be absorbed by the journey so I can awake feeling fresh and new again.I know it's emotions running high becuase it's that time of the month,but I really just want to cry.

It's such a horrible feeling when you know,that however hard you'll ever try,somebody just won't like you.They just hate you,becuase you've got something they will never have,and they're to childish to accept that fact-hard though it is.

It wears me right down,and I so want to hate her back but I just can't and don't.I feel sorry for her,and if she knew,that would be worse than hating her...
Lindsay,I'm sorry that i'm with joe and that upsets you.
But I by no means,rub that in your face.I always try and talk to you,smile at you,i'm interested in what you have to say,you're hobbies and you're art work,and I want you to be interested in mine to.but you're just to stuck in loving yourself to much,and moaning to much,to see that.I'm sure you see everything I do as some sort of effort to make you feel bad.I never ever do that.You really upset me,and you know you do becuase you do it in the lowest way,sarcastic put downs and glares,ignoring me...I feel sorry for you that you're so screwed up inside you refuse to move on from you're childish,bitter ways.I want someone to come along and pull you out of it,but you're so ficsated that i've got what you think you need that you'll deterr everyone from you.You copy everything he does and it's pathetic.You're pathetic.But you could so easily not be.
It's something for me to learn,anyway,that you will not like me.You are here to test me.I will not change,I won't back down and I shan't let you upset me anymore becuase then you win.I will NOT give you that satisfaction.

I am weak,to all of this.You are by no means above me,and I will not let you think you are anymore.I shan't let this come to any head,becuase it's honestly not worth it.You're opinions mean nothing,everyone can see you're a tag along who moans and nags and copies all the time,you're jelousy is so plain obvious that people also feel as sorry for you as I do.
You're just a very sad,lonely indervigual,who I wanted to help but now know,i'll just be wasting my time.



I am in no mood for this right now.
I hate myself,and i'm going to cry.