blergh!

I am stressed about lots of things at the moment,although it's all rather work related.And after spending a fair bit of time with Joe to,I realise that I was being silly before,and it won't be a secret-as it won't be buired within me.I don't need excsess wieght on my sholders,and it'll be something that will get between us in the end,for no real reason.
I decided I need a healthy week,as i've eaten such a lot of rubbish as of late!I hate knowing I could do better.It comes over me every so oftern,the desire to be healthy and lose weight,be slim and trim becuase then I'll feel better about myself.But to be honest,it's all about my mood.One day I won't care what I look like,then next day i'll be far to self conscious.
The way I try to see it,is,I wouldn't mind at all if I was with a rather large person,I wouldn't love them any less.So,why can't I see that in myself?
What usually happens though is I go a day without eating,thinking i'll be slimming right down,when really the next morning,i'll eat a days worth,and more.It's not healthy,at the end of the day.

I'm not sure what to do with myself this evening.I went out with Joe last night,for a lovely meal and saw Toy story 2 in 3D and it was lovely.I'm not sure if i'll see him tonight,although I hope I do.
I never feel like going over to his as I know that she'll be there,watching his every move and making desberate attempts to impress him,it just makes me so annoyed.The more i'm there,the more I realise it to and I really don't want to be annoyed by her.I suppose I should really not be bothered by her at all,and eventually,I will get there with that.It's just going to take a bit of time.

This bowl of canned fruit cocktail is hard work!
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Hopefully everything will be ok.