"If I had to chose,the way to die,it would be with you...in a goosebump infested embrace."

"Thank goodness for that.You're finally moved on."
I suppose hearing that makes it all feel alot more real.Tingles shot up my spine when I saw that things were really going to be different now,maybe even better.but of course with that feeling of reflief that washed over there was also a stab of another feeling.It's probably my mind confusing the endless upset and frustration as an emotion/feeling that I should be missing.
It turns out that,like me,he found somebody new and much better fitted.That was why I hadn't heard anything for two blissful weeks,and enjoyed some time to be myself again.I had to email him to inform I wouldn't be coming home at the weekend for a gig,becuase I had some work experience,but in all honesty I was scared to return.That was my real reason.And so me and Sian have decided to go for an expensive day out in London instead.Which I'm looking forward to a great deal.
It's true,things are different now.Maybe this is the true start to my uni days,or second year,which like every time,was interupted by him in some grizzly way.He won't get that satisfaction anymore.
I should stop thinking about it all together really,I must not dwell on the past,he knows where he went wrong and hopefully we'll be able to cross each other in the street and smile at the good times and memories,not the unpleasantness we both impacted apon each others lives.But it can be hard sometimes.
Anyway,I suppose that means thats it.finally,after a couple hundred entries,he'll be kept very much on the down low.Which means I can give everything else my full attention.

Projects are exciting but recieving very slow starts.I suppose the deadline isn't for a month or two,so I feel I can take my time a bit.I know it'll be here before I know it,but at least this weekend I am going to spend researching and the like.
It's more competative this time around,which is interesting to see how everyone will react.Already I can see i'm not really feeling it like I should be,but i'm sure when I find something that catches my eye and inspires me i'll be ok.
I'm interested in researching Fairtrade Cotton,which is also a little competition between uni's and the like,and although it'll be alot more work,it'll be a fantastic thing to do.

Joe came over last night,I made him some dinner and we watched Spaced and Conchords,it was just so lovely.He really does make me feel at home,and the more I spend time with him the more I want to know about him and his life,the more I want to go wherever he's going,meet all his friends...i'm getting carried away.But the joy of the teenager crushy love of excitement and giddyness,is just an experience I thought I lost several,several years ago.
I hope it stays :)

I have been overtaken by the rush to do something creative,and writting how long I think i've got is encoraging me to start this bloomin project.
Aw hopefully i'll see Joe on monday,I want to go out and do so much,do so many things hehe.Shame the monies won't allow! XD hehe.