The void that needs to be filled...

It's been a day of so many dealings unfortunatly.
Some good,some bad.And always the way,the bad always effect you all the more than the good.It's as though the good only occurs as a unpleasant contrast.But then,things can only get better,right?
I had a horrible talk with mum.One of those where she would have loved to actually been face to face,but I were glad of the distance.The big guns of 'feel guitly parental phrases' were flying about all over the place,I just caved and crumbled.It's such a shame I can't comunicate with her how i'd like to,but I just go about things and feel I'm doing the right thing when,most of the time it comes back and makes me truely regret my dession.
But hopefully,thats over now.I know it won't be forgotten,but not talked about is better than a constant dwelling.

I need to tell him-no.Get out,get away from me,that he is absolutely no good for me,to me,to him as well.

And tell the guy I actually am allowing strong feelings develop,how I feel about him...if it would be a wise idea...