12.9.09

Awful pattern.

Of course,Dad offered the best advise.I know that it hurts him when I let on that Ben has annoyed or upset me in some way,as he's told me to cut him out of my life many times before.I guess it's just not in my imidiate nature.
"If he starts saying things about you or to you which arn't true,rise above it.You know he's wrong,so it shouldn't bother you as he looks like the idiot.It's when he's right it should be something to be concerned about,and sort out." And in all fairness,on this occasion,he isn't right.

I mean,nothing big has really happened,he just said he was annoyed at me but we've got through worse before so this should be ok,but goodness only knows."Whatever he can do to get your attention,thats what it is."I smiled when I heard that at first,thinking it were silly but i suppose it does make some sense.Why bad attnetion though?He's just been brought up to believe that if you think your right,argue you're right til you're blue in the face.He knows he's highly strung and opinionated,whilst being easy to offend.I use that phrase all the time,but it's spot on to be honest.A dangerous mix.

Tomorrow will be quiet at work.I won't be able to look at him,and he won't be the first to say anything,and that way it shall remain for a few days.But if the going really does get tough,I can always think that this time next week i'll be in Huddersfield again.
I will miss my family though.

I can't believe that,he's wrewined my time,again!He does it every single time,wrewins my time by upsetting,annoying or concerning me in some way,shape or form.Last year he did the very same thing,before I left.What an awful pattern he follows.

I'm just counting down the days...

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22.10.24

Trying to hold it together, trying hard not to cry. Nothing has happened, it's just I feel very overwhelmed. Tired, deeply tired, to my ...