How does it feel to know you're everything I want...

Dear you.

I fill so warm,comfortable and inspired and it is indeed all your doing.And all of what i'm about to say I wonder if you'll ever know.I hope to tell you before the moment may pass for either of us,becuase you are such a wonderful person and I feel you need to be told.
I always look forward to hearing from you,you're words so modest and well structured help structure me and my mind.For some reason,seeing your name at the top of a page makes all my troubles go away.Last year,I couldn't help but feel a bit upset that we hadn't seen as much as we thought of each other.And when we did meet,I talked far to much,put on too much make-up and laughed at moments where silence would have been fine.I realised I can be myself with you,and it's a feeling that has been in hiding for some time now,but when I speak with you,it just glows from me.
And when you recommended that band,I bought the album instantly,and it struck a real chord within me.And when you told me you knew of my favourite band,I had butterflies.I felt like a little girl again,who has no concept of love and all that crazy jazz,just desire and wonder all mixed into one,and I feel it refreshed every time you take time to spend some time with me.

I really do hope we do all we say we will do this year.And if it isn't to bold,more.I truely admire you,in all your kind,caring ways.How you have so much in life and give so much and yet at any time you find yourself jumping on a plane jetting off to somewhere new,embracing the unknown and spontaniousness.I find myself wanting to be apart of your life in some way maybe as a friend,but more than that to.I've strayed off the course of my mind and am now ready to rejoin it again.I don't want to do what i did last year,I want somthing,SOMEONE who's stable.And that is you.
And I hope I havn't scared you away,and I hope in some crazy way,you want that with me to.From the moment I met you,I wanted to have a future with you,becuase your polite,gracious,humourous words spoke to my heart and made me feel so safe.
I hope I am what you want,what you're looking for.
I'm really looking forward to the things we plan.And i'll try not to get too excited,becuase in the past I have been let down.But I at least want...to give it a go.

I hope...I can tell you this.
At least some of it.
xxx