So take me by the hand and come,lets jump out the window...

These last few days have been so dramatic and over the top.They've been the worst days i've had in a very long while,and i'm ashamed i've let them been.By being an idiot,once again.
The difference is,in comparrison to previous canundrums,I feel as though I have well and truely come out from the other side.
Yesterday,he was absolutely fine.He accepted my apology,and he appologised to me too,and he seemed to really mean it.But for some reason,I still wanted to hit him.And then break down and cry in front of him.My emotions can't take it anymore,they've reached there toll and i know he'll push me again in future.
It's just,I need to let go of him and yet I can't do it.